Wrestling with Medschool

I always said to myself, "I know medschool is tough but I know it isn't impossible for me". But now that I am in it, the huge wave of infos, subjects, topics and despair, devastation, realization that came with it is rushing over me like an uncontrollable tsunami. This is totally different from what I was expecting. Now I can attest, medschool isn't anywhere near easy. I have come to realize that I lack a ton of lots of things. My weaknesses slap my face like a giant wet hand. It seems like 24hours is so not enough for a day and there's literally no time for fun. Piles after piles after piles of items to memorize and test after test after test to answer. I have come to realize that everything in me is not enough. I have come to realize that I AM not good enough. But in that sense, I will strive hard. And if still I won't be able to catch, I'll strive harder. It will be tough. I remember the salmon swimming against the current, against gravity as it swims uphill and try to jump over a waterfall. I sometimes see myself as a foreigner standing in the middle of China speaking tagalog to the chinese locals. But I will try hard. I will try harder. I still believe in the thought that I have said earlier, but let me rephrase it, "Medschool is the only impossible thing that, with God as my guide, I will make possible.."